Why focussed perception ?

Musings asked me "Why focussed perception as the URL?"

I had considered writing boring, it was just that it never amused me. I was more keen to wander into the forest or pick up fights for no reason (won some, lost some, felt bad when I lost and felt bad when I won). Never respected anybody, fact is I still dont- Call me an Iconoclaust. Ya, I just hit the real core of my thinking. I DO NOT RESPECT ANYTHING-never did. I cannot stand when someone extols -- for that matter even the Mahatma. I used to bristle when the kid next door got the first rank and my mom goes "Seeee! He is a Goooood Boy and Youuuu?". Never respected my teachers baring from the recent exception - My Masters Thesis Guide. Well he suited my persona- He just let me free, just cut me lose into exploring a theoretical difficulty in its minutaea. Bang, I just hit my answer to the conundrum that was aching my head. I thrive when I am free. I am a sociopath when I am told to act, to behave and to comply.

Frankly, before begining the above paragraph, I did not know what to begin with to answer "Why focussed perception?". Then I thought, "Hey! Why did things happen to me as they did and why not try writing about it?". It was unclear to me, I did not believe that I knew my answer but writing just shoveled it out from all the noise thats within my cranium.

The issue that was aching my head-- Why was I so irritable when I was a kid?

The answer is-- Being a single kid with dotting mom curtailed my freedom and I am at my optimum best only when I am cut lose, needless to say the hard time my folks had. Its true, what to do ! :(

So, its a problem in Graph Theory of finding the shortest path from point A (The problem) to point B (The solution which is actually unknown), Phew! Whats the big deal! Perform a Dijkstra!. Ok, I apologize for being such a geek. The Mathematics of the problem is as yet undefined so I have to resort to something else--WRITING.

Lets, see the first para again. I try and put a valiant effort to highlight the symptoms of the problem. Bang, I got the question that was aching my head. So far so good. With this premise many more stuff came out as a consequence. A sequence was built in my head.

[ 3, 7, 37, 737, Whats the next number in the sequence? 37737, YEEEHAAAWWWWW :). I got the answer, No!, not a frivolous number, You #@!. ]

If you made sense from what I said, then you know what I mean-- I got the answer and it relieved me from my misery, it finally made sense.

Writing puts everything into perspective. Then all I have to do is to draw a conclusion. Its dissecting, separating out the obvious and throwing the unnecessary, piecing together a jig-saw and seeking my answer. This is my Focussed Perception. Writing is the microscope I use to look at my perceptions with clarity, with focus.

Sometimes, its us who make ourselves miserable. "Applause!"

:)